I told my Teacher in my recent reading with Linda Dillon that I could see only so far and I felt I needed to see further. And he said, surprisingly, and I paraphrase, that’s because you’ve been covered.
I would have said that’s because I’m wearing blinkers, as probably most of us reading this are as well. But he used the word “covered.” And he said that the covers would be removed soon. I asked “When?” And he said, again surprisingly, “We’ll start tomorrow and go gradually.”
The next day the process did indeed start. At between 3 and 4 a.m. in the morning, my dreams started to take a wierd turn. Everything became sexual. At one point I enrolled in a History class and no sooner had I entered the room than I found myself in a clutch with the instructor. What on Earth was happening?
I awoke and was still bothered by the same energy and then it hit me. My kundalini had started to stir and it was passing through the lowest or root chakra. To make a long story short, over the next hour, it passed up my spine and stopped at the mid-back. And there it stopped for the day.
I experienced a huge increase in consciousness. And I wrote the article “We Must Close Down the National-Security State” while in that expanded state. It has since closed down, as far as I can see. I felt bigger. My consciousness shifted in a way that is hard to describe. At one point the kundalini was rising within me and at the next point it was as if my body were somehow outside of me or perhaps I was outside my body. So there was a shift from the rising kundalini being a subjective experience to it seeming to be an objective experience.
I thought the process would continue one day later but it hasn’t. Hey, I leave it up to the Teacher. But I can tell you from that one small episode that it is now clear to me what awaits us.
I submit for your consideration that most of us are wearing blinkers or are “covered.” The persona you inhabit at this moment is not who you are and, when the time comes, the blinkers will be removed and you will know yourself as an entirely different person.
Why are we blinkered? The way the Teacher explained it to me was that, if I were not, I would not have entered into the flow of Earth life and would have considered myself different from others. As it is, he said, you’re not interested in many things of this life. And indeed I’m not. I couldn’t care less who wins the Super Bowl. I’ve had it with travel, movies, possessions, almost anything I can think of. Been there, done that. What else have you got?
Of course I would never have guessed why that was. I put it down to having monkish proclivities and that’s what I told the Teacher. But he disagreed. He said it was because I’m a person who kicks all around the universe (I think David calls it a “wanderer” but I’m not sure what the term exactly means).
The Teacher said I was last in Arcturus but had spent a lot of time in the Pleiades and Sirius. He also mentioned Halyon, which is not familiar to me, (1) and some other places whose names I can’t bring back.
Lately I’ve been having a lot of conversations with other people who know they have other roots. And all of us appear to be blinkered.
So back to the experience. My hunch is that more of the process will happen at the right time. I’m not going to bother myself about it. I’ve known for three years that I serve the Teacher and he is one reliable Being so I can leave the matter to him.
But I now have an inkling about how the covers will be removed. If it happens for you the way it happened that day for me, and it may not, the kundalini will rise.
I have to caution you that you and I both, when that happens, will be one person one day and another the next so be prepared for a radical discontinuity in capacities, character, etc., a transformational shift as it were. You can see, if you re-read the article on the national-security state, that my writing is radically different in that expanded state. That’s why I wrote the article, to see what writing was like from that more expanded space (which has now departed, I see).
If anyone has seen the movie, The Thirteenth Floor, they will perhaps recall the difference between Gretchen Mol as the gum-smacking grocery clerk and Gretchen Mol as her “user,” the refined and developed young woman. The difference between me before the kundalini began rising and when it reached its highest point was about as noticeable as that.
And I have no doubt that the difference will increase if and when the process starts again.
My agreement was to go through things like this transparently and, to the degree advisable, publicly for the purpose of reporting back to you. And now I’m reporting that, if things work for you the same as they work for me, your blinkers will at some point be removed. And, when they are, you may find yourself saying, “Oh, so this is who I am” and you’ll pick right up at a higher level of functioning as if nothing unusual has happened. You won’t miss a beat, so to say. All the time that is past will simply vanish.
I’m going to leave off here and resume in a second article.
(1) Les tells me that Halyon was a planet destroyed in the intergalactic wars.