It’s funny that Kau’ila published this today because I too feel about as flat as I can possibly conceive of feeling. It’s as if I’m finished, done, through with 3D. The darkest night of the year, in which the only light (the Moon) has been extinguished), in the End Times of this cycle, which SaLuSa recently called the darkest day before the dawn, may be the reason – or not.
But I also feel, as Kau’ila does, that nothing of anything I’ve ever valued up till now remains valuable. I just trust that this is exactly what’s supposed to be happening and now is exactly when it’s supposed to be happening.
Posted on December 21, 2010 by kauilapele
All day I have felt really “NOT”. NOT like doing anything. NOT like trying anything. And feeling strongly that I am NOT what I have been putting out for the past several years.
The “Kauilapele” does NOT fit anymore. The “Kauwila” (the name I use when I play music) does NOT fit anymore. The “being Hawaiian” does NOT fit anymore. The “living in Hawaii” does NOT fit anymore.
It just seems as if I’ve been broken up, thrown up in the air, and am waiting to find out how I will come back together.
Well, might as well enjoy this ride.