(Continued from Part 1)
Jesus said the truth will make you free. Granted he was probably neither talking about seeing an earlier, similar incident nor about being free from tension in the body, but still what he laid out, I think, applies. Seeing the truth of an upset does set us free from muscular tension.
But my story does not end there.
I was set free to a degree, but not completely. Because I could see that tension remained, I persisted. What other earlier, similar record could there be that caused my upset in the present?
Having asked my mind for a further record, I then saw my Dad shouting at me. He’d gotten upset at something and was doing a thorough hatchet job on my personality. Same thing again, right? Responsible, well-spoken official rejects version of events accompanied by personal attack and character assassination. The original threat in my life – my own parent (half of us will have this story; half of us will substitute our Mother).
Now, seeing this deeper version of the story, the upset lifted and I was freed from the tension I had been gripped by until then.
Our normal, intuitive response to an upset is to see its source as being our present-day interaction. Our normal reaction is to attack the perceived attacker and the normal upshot is that we increase the tension in our bodies. We also create grooves in our mind that commit us to more attack next time the same thing seems to happen. These are what stand between us and a stable enlightenment. These, I think, are what will keep us back from an enjoyable and trouble-free Ascension.
I would’ve noticed my reactivation. I would’ve spent some time experiencing it deeply. I would focus my attention on what was happening internally and forget about what was happening externally. I would have put a name to what I was feeling. Once I felt quite grounded in my experience of the unwanted condition or upset, I would’ve asked myself what earlier, similar incident did it remind me of?
I would have taken the first picture, word, or other clue I got and tried it on for size. Was it this incident? I would watch for tension release. If there was some in response to my question, I would conclude that I was warm. If there was total release, I would conclude that I was hot.
If tension remained, I would ask myself again what earlier, similar incident was at work here? Again I would take the first thought that came to my mind, be with it, try it on, let it work on me, and see if it resulted in a release of tension.
I would not attack the other. I would not think that the situation in the present was what was upsetting me. I would have fallen quiet and gone inside and taken a look at how I felt and what memory could be causing it.
Notice how counter-intuitive this process is because, if you don’t, chances are you’ll revert to the normal, intuitive response of seeing the present-day incident as the source of the upset. The real sources lies not in the present day, but in the past and, more than likely, in the deep past. Chances are too that trying to think about it will not help. Asking the mind for the record and accepting the first thing that comes up will help.
So now, let’s think of a few situations that might reactivate us.
The Galactic Federation and the other space councils land. The first thing someone says to us is do we wish for a ride in his spaceship? We flash on that guy who said they want to take you away to Mars and use you as a slave. We freeze up.
Or the galactics show up in force and blanket the sky, reminding us of Independence Day, scaring the heck out of all of us and we again freeze up.
Or SaLuSa comes on TV and tells us that all of us who have ever been members of an organized religion have been to a certain extent brain-washed and we immediately freeze up wanting to defend our religion.
Or Matthew comes on TV and says that the price of Ascension is giving up all our earthly possessions and we really want to keep our wedding ring.
I’m making these situations up and have no idea whether they are true situations or not. But I’m just trying to suggest how many times a day we stand to be reactivated after “lift-off.”
I’ll be reviewing this again and again from any angle I can because this is the way to handle all the upsets we’ll experience once the main event begins.
- Stand in the face of it, without reacting.
- Observe what is happening to you internally.
- Ask yourself precisely when the upset started.
- Try to put a name to it – dismay, horror, indignation?
- Ask yourself what earlier, similar incident is in play here? Take the first thought you get.
- Try it on for size.
- Observe whether entertaining it as the cause of your upset brings release.
- If it does, enjoy the release. If it does not, try again.
- Keep going until all tension is gone.
Now what can go wrong here? A lot of things. Some people will try to “figure out” what the original incident was that is causing them pain. That will not work.
This process involves, not trying to figure things out, but asking the mind to give us some clue – a picture, sentence, intuition – of the original incident. The mind is so constructed that it will faithfully mirror back that incident.
What can go wrong?
(1) You aren’t quick enough to catch the flash. The mind mirrored it back in a flash, but, you weren’t watching for it and so you missed it.
(2) Or you say, “Nah, that can’t be it” and reject what the mind sends you. The flash disappears and you arrive at no insight into what it is that triggered you and say the process doesn’t work.
(3) Or you don’t actually take up what the mind sends you and try it on and so it’s lost. You saw the flash but did not take hold of it and test it out and so the opportunity to see if it fit was lost.
(4) Or you don’t ask the mind, but sit there thinking about it. You will not be able to find the original incident by thinking about it. The mind is not constructed that way. It’s like trying to see a ship by looking through the wrong end of a spyglass.
There’s lots that can go wrong. This process takes practice. But run correctly, it will cause the original and present upset to disappear. It may take going through the same episode a few times before it disappears, depending on how central an issue it is to you, but each time you go through it, it will subside some more.
As far as I’m concerned, learn this method of standing in the face of upsets and you’ll move from, not adding to your store of tension, but subtracting from it. Your mind, body and emotions will become, not more sclerotic, but more supple. Your stock of incompletions, instead of increasing, will decrease.
Yes, it will feel the same as if you just had an upset because you did. But this time instead of ramifying it and increasing your inner arthritis you experienced it through and increased your inner freedom.
I swear – even more than pushing the frontiers of knowledge – I’m sure that this is what I came to say. Saying it for me, every time I do, increases my own sense of release.
If I repeat this enough times and enough people get it, hey, I can go fishing. My job will be done. We all have some piece of work we came to do, and I’m absolutely certain that this is one important task that I accepted way before birth.
Hallelujah, I did it. I fulfilled one clause of my soul contract. Hot damn! Do I feel exuberant!
(One hour later: And how do I know I’ve gotten to the bottom of this one? Now I experience the return of love. Proof of full release – until the next time.)