Lauren and the Arcturians address the question here of how to “walk through this VERY narrow doorway, fully present and completely void of an agenda.” Fully present – here in this moment, not in our heads, able to access our deeper selves. Completely void of an agenda – not ruled by our issues, leftover resentments, unfinished business.
A year ago we used to discuss this on Share11 as walking through the eye of the needle. Back then it was theoretical but now we see the discussions becoming actual. We’re nearing that time when completing our unfinished business and being present will be important.
SaLuSa is talking about it, Matthew, Hilarion, many of the other teachers. This should illustrate to us how these guides will communicate what needs to be done at each step of the journey. Eventually they’ll walk among us and be able to assist us individually.
Losing Hope: the final attachment
Monday Aug. 16, 2010
Remember in the last update when I said….“if we can walk through this VERY narrow doorway, fully present and completely void of an agenda, we will experience a major shift on many levels”?
Well, not that I need to tell you, but we are still trying to squeeze our full-bodied selves through that very small opening. And our success rate…or the ease by which it happens… has everything to do with the “completely void of an agenda” part.
Truth is, most of us want through that doorway so badly that we are trying e v e r y t h i n g we can think of to bust down that door and get the hell out of Dodge.
We’re being forced through sheer frustration to find our way out of this paradoxical box we’ve locked ourselves into…forced into surrendering to a new way of seeing and doing things, to accessing and using a whole new set of tools in an entirely new realm of human experience.
Trying and Prying
The last few weeks…but days especially…feelings of hopelessness and desperation abound. We have been frantically trying to access this portal to our new lives, scraping our nails against the grain, in search of even the tiniest clutch hold that will offer us the ability to pry that door ajar.
Each time we find a groove deep enough to leverage the door’s heavy mass, we loose our grip, the door slams shut and we fall back into our old ways, into those old energies that we are fighting to be free of.
Our physical bodies still screaming…”UNCLLLLLLE!”…bucking in complete defiance of integrating another ounce of light or pushing our way through one more day without resolve.
But even through all this resistance we are facing, we are being told that there is, in fact, a door here…and that there IS a way through it…and at the risk of reusing some played-out platitudes…we just can’t force it open with our hands, we can only will it open with our hearts.
Moving forward through this “active death zone” requires that we release all mental and emotional resistance to it….that we settle fully and completely into the present discomfort so that we can feel our way to the other side. It’s almost as if this doorway exists only for those who don’t want it…but more appropriately, this doorway exists only for those who don’t “need” it.
Which brings us back to the age-old anomaly….how do we NOT want something that we so desperately want?
And the answer is always the same…we have to release attachment to our desires…to let go by surrendering into complete acceptance of what-is. It’s not as if we will lose our heart-felt desires on the other side, its that they must be unplugged, upgraded, rewired, fine-tuned and completely free of human attachment.
The Arcturians are telling me that…“there was a time when each of you were guided to the space of no space when you would more effortlessly release yourself from bondage. But now, in the final hours and through feeling the building desperation of wanting so badly to move forward, you are unable to find and settle into that same sense of relief.”
Gee, you think??? Now granted, I am just as guilty of this as the average idiot who agreed to this half-baked journey…wait, did we agree to this?…but somehow, by some obnoxious force greater than our own, we still. can’t. give. up. We HAVE to remember…now more than ever…that beneath the death-like fatigue and disconnection, we still have the power within us to push through these gateways… only its so easy to lose sight of this in the mounting frustration of our relentless stuck-in-the-mudness.
And if that weren’t a tall enough order, we must also realize that this frustration also has its divine purpose…it is the building momentum of sheer desire for something better that is accumulating like the pressure of a combustion engine applying irrational force to our refurbished pistons so we can be catapulted forward into our new lives.
So even though we are far beyond exhausted and weary…we are still being urged to remember that there is always a way to peace…but to access this space requires a shift in perspective… a release…a surrendering…and a letting go of unparalleled proportion.
I recently mentioned that this letting go process was very similar to physical death in that we must first release all emotional attachments to get to the other side where love will abound in greater measure.
Right now we are at the stage of releasing the deepest layers of human attachment, and that includes the desire to hold on any longer as well as our long-time companion…HOPE. From a higher perspective, hope is really just resistance in disguise. It’s a candy-coated expression of doubt, discomfort with uncertainty, dissatisfaction with what-is, and an inability to surrender into full presence.
Because we are stepping so fully into our authentic selves, we are losing our strength and ability to hold onto to anything…and hope is the last to go. Contrary to Forrest Whittaker’s vision in 1998…hope-doesn’t-float here. In fact, it will sink us if we try to hold on.
So don’t be alarmed or confused if you can’t muster up the energy to be-lie-ve in the outcome of this journey anymore…your not supposed to. We literally can’t take hope with us because it’s too dense.
Essentially, hope is a derivative of lack…of not-having, but wanting…of incompleteness…and it simply cannot be upheld in the higher frequencies of wholeness. Where we are going, hope is transformed into knowing and peace comes with presence when we are in full acceptance of what is, without wanting anything to be different. This is the ultimate state of surrender, and the one that is required to pass go.
Instead of hoping or wanting things to be different at this point, we need to take the opposite approach…we need to whole-heart-edly surrender ourselves so fully into the discomfort of uncertainty that we emerge on the other side with visceral knowing…assured of our mastery, and the ability to uphold it.
All illusions/delusions, hopes, dreams, expectations, etc….anything that we have fabricated in our minds or used as fuel…or carrots!…to keep us going, or propel us this far, must now be cut loose in order to fit through that doorway. And just to be clear here…that doorway is built on the threshold of both endings AND beginnings…when we come full circle, the end of the old is just the beginning of the new…which is why they happen simultaneously.
When in doubt, remember that it’s the faithful, not the hopeful, who will rise with the new sun.
And keep in mind that it is not as if we cannot have, manifest or achieve our heartfelt desires that are burned within our galactic-genetic blueprints, its that each doorway is getting smaller and smaller, and to make it through each one we have to leave behind more and more…to let go of what we perceive we need in order to be authentic and true...where we truly experience with every fiber of our being that we already have it all.
We are officially breaking through the most putrefied layers of sediment that exist at the deepest layers of our being. We are becoming completely empty (netural) vessels so that the light of our divinity can fill in every nook and cranny of our deeply excavated personas.
This deep letting go is bewildering to experience, and it takes us through the most obscene challenges in facing our mis-creations and limitations. You may be thinking to yourself…what could we possibly have left to let go of…and just in that moment, we are faced with the realization that we are still holding on to the frustration of letting go! Yes, mastery is a mockery.
(To be continued in part 2)